The surgery for Jake is scheduled for Monday, June 11th. I will be dropping him off at 8AM for pre-op and the surgery is scheduled for 11:30AM.

His GoFundMe is finally live and active.

Now, I just do what I can to prepare for the surgery. But how do you even prepare for something like this, other than getting his room ready, or cleaning up the house a bit, there isn't much I can actually do. I wish I could prepare Jake. I wish I could explain to him that he needs this surgery and that it'll be okay. That there is nothing to fear and that I will be here for him through the recovery. But you can't explain things to a dog, they don't fully understand. All he can understand, all he feels, are my worries and my anxiety leading up to the surgery. I can do my best to hold back but there is only so much I can actually contain. I hate to leave him in the dark like this. I can't imagine the fear, confusion, or anxiety he might end up feeling before or after the surgery. I wish I could be there for him every step of the way.

Is this just a taste of the anxiety a mother feels for a new born, baby, and/or toddler when they have to go through something almost as bad, just as bad, or worse? Can I add this to the ever growing list of reasons why being a mother absolutely terrifies me?

Mothers deserve so much more than we give them.

SOOOO so so so so SOOO much more.

It is ridiculous.

I am tired of the sexism that is in the world about females, mothers, and just the woman population as whole. No person would be alive without females.

(If you're thinking we can't do it without men, well, click here)

Now, pull up your big boy pants and treat us like magnificent magical life giving (basically Gods) that we are. Because honestly, we bring life into this world. Is there any other time or way to be closer to a God than that? We're all lucky that all women are asking for is equality and to feel safe walking down the street at night.